Dr. Psychologist

Today I met with a psychologist. While he is new to this area, I am also new with meeting with a psychologist or somebody that educated about mental health. I feel like today opened up a whole new world for me. It was as if he pierced right through my soul and saw who I really was and how I felt. 

I walked in and he asked a few questions. I told him about my family and explained my background with the woman I saw previously. He asked if it was a difficult transition after seeing someone for three years. I said it wasn't because I actually sensed in my spirit a few months before that it was nearing an end. We had come to a really great spot and we both felt happy for the other. 

He didn't ask too many more questions. He said he basically had a chest sheet with my information because everything was well documented over the last three years. He had looked at the previous notes about me and asked what brought me in that day. 

We got to discuss so many aspects of my life and ultimately he said it sounds like I feel unfulfilled and that I was having anxiety about being unfulfilled. I'll add guilt in there too. He noticed some passions and desires within me but said I lack the confidence and faith that I can meet my goals or aspirations. 

It was interesting because I went into the session thinking I would come out with a diagnosis as to what is "wrong" with me. I came out, instead, with the realization that I need to be mentally stimulated and challenged, gain some self-esteem and confidence, and set some goals for myself. We joked that whatever I was looking for wasn't in the DSM. 😂 He told me to quit looking there for it. I told him I probably had so many of those symptoms. 

It is truly crazy to think he spent maybe 30 minutes with me and pinpointed the root cause of my emotions. I was longing for that. He has over 30 years of experience and boy does it show. 

I am eager to see where this leads! Eager to discover my desires, passions, and to delve further into what fulfills me.